FollowLately, my mind has been working on full gear. It’s constantly flooded with thoughts — plans, projects, work, my daughters, and everything else that comes with being a 52-year-old mother, wife, daughter, daughter-in-law, and sister-in-law. It feels like my brain is juggling a hundred tabs open at once, and I just can’t find the “shut down” button.
At night, when I finally lie down hoping to rest, my mind refuses to cooperate. It races through to-do lists, family matters, house matters, and random worries. The result? Sleepless nights and a very forgetful me.
Within just two weeks, I left food that I bought from one shop at another shop (this has happened several times), left my empty tiffin carrier at a restaurant, and even left groceries in the car boot. Thankfully, I always realize it after I reach home — but by then, I’ve already changed into my comfy house clothes! The frustration of having to get dressed again, go down to the basement, or worse, drive back out during lunch-hour traffic when parking is impossible, is just… argh!
Just this morning, after parking my car and searching my boot for my 3-tier tiffin carrier, I couldn’t find it. I was sure I had put it back into the car after washing it yesterday. But then it hit me — yesterday, I didn’t even use it! It had been a hectic morning with the washing machine technician coming to repair my washer (AGAIN!). With only 30 minutes to grab lunch, I rushed to buy chicken rice in a disposable box.
Still puzzled about the tiffin carrier’s whereabouts, I walked to my usual chap fan shop — and there it was! My familiar 3-tier tiffin carrier sitting on the table at the entrance – the same place that I had left it yesterday morning in my haste. I had left it there yesterday when I arrived too early to buy dishes, walked to another shop for chicken rice, and completely forgot about it. I laughed when I saw the staff, who also laughed with me. What a sight — a middle-aged woman reunited with her runaway tiffin carrier!
On the home front, there’s good news — Alycia has been offered a permanent job with a great starting salary, even before graduating. I’m so thankful to God for this blessing.
Sherilyn, on the other hand, is in her second year of her Architecture degree and has been swamped with assignments. She’s losing sleep and not eating well. Yesterday, I bought her two boxes of chicken breast rice and a box of broccoli for her long day at uni. But when she came home at 10:30 p.m., the food was still untouched. She said she was too busy to eat. Hubby told her not to eat it since it had been left out all day — so there went RM30 worth of food straight into the bin!
As for Cass, she’s deep in her SPM revision and her sleep hygiene has gone completely out the window.
I know things in my life won’t stabilize anytime soon. My mind will probably continue to be in this “crazy mode” — thinking, strategizing, planning, organizing, and worrying about everything under the sun. But I’ve decided that for now, I need to create small mechanisms to help myself — reminders, checklists, and most importantly, the presence of mind.
I can’t wait for the year 2026 to arrive. I have big plans and projects lined up. Yes, they come with a fair share of stress, but also with purpose and determination. I know I can do it. The universe has my back.
Lately, I’ve been listening to Suddenly by Sir Cliff Richard and Olivia Newton-John on repeat. I’ve always loved this song, and the version they performed together at Cliff Richard’s 75th birthday concert is one of my favorites. They sang Suddenly together at several concerts, and I just love how affectionate and tender they were — always sharing a slow dance, a gentle kiss, and a warm hug on stage. It’s so sad that Olivia Newton-John has passed on; she’s one of my all-time favorite singers. It’s also bittersweet to know that Cliff once loved her, but she was already engaged.
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